Saturday, October 11, 2008
guess this is the first thing i blog bout someone..
&& that is none other than ♥MASNISHA_DLH
alright,i guess i know you well
with your stubborn-ness,
you would just off the window..
but this is good if you continue read on..
this gal have been stepping in & out of my life for bout 3 years?
yeah..3 yrs doesnt seem that long,
but wad happen btw us is longer than a 3 yrs friendship..
hmmm..how should i start..
alright..
we had once talked bout searching job together after N
but now..
i had found my job.
& you still looking for 1..
you just seem so much unhappy on this..
whichever job i had found,require ppl who are 16 & above..
but the truth is you haben been 16 yet..
&& that seriously doesnt mean that i forget bout it
& cause you into lost of words..
you cant expect me to wait for you to be 16 & find job by the time..
its gonna be too late..
actually i had predicted that the outing on mon would be cancel..
just b4 i texted you..
but i just wish to prove myself wrong
alright,but it just seem so much that am right..
you said you wanna to search for job
& eventually put our meeting aside..
am not saying you are totally in fault..
but nevertheless..am just being upset by this..
i dint really wish to argue anything bout this..
but wad you wrote in your blog is just.............
you can said the phrase you wrote wasnt for me..
but i can sense that you're refering to me..
i know you are in the suffer of friendship of ana & puti..
& hasnt i been around with you since the start of it..
i am the one that always give you advise..
perhaps not the best one,but a good one..
i know you may feel frausted sometime
due to my STM..
but you think i wished this to happen..
nah..NEVER!!
sometimes,i do think back that had i treated you bad??
so far..it seem NO AT ALL..
but had you ever wonder you treated me well enough as i treat you?
*as this moment..you might be saying BULLSHIT*
you might said me petty if i mention those out..
lastly..
i nvr thought we will had such a 'big' arguement..
it not arguement,but misunderstanding??
idk..
do you think its worth for us to be in such situation just because of the word 'job'?
to me..
its totally worthless..
i asked my heart..
does it really worth to be by everyone side w/o gaining my own benefit.?.
am i being selfish.?.
hasnt i thought of everyone when i doin things?
lastly..
WHY IS THIS HAPPENINGS TO ME.?.
DO I DESERVE ALL THIS?
mas::
you can think i bullshit now..
but all this isnt crap..
if i really dun mind our darlingship or friendship to be broken..
then why should i spending time talking all this when i just came from a full-shift work..
&& does it really worth for you for our happenings now??
&& the laughter moments we have isnt that easy to be erase..
but i guess all the happy moments is not enough to cover the anger in you..
am not trying to prove i super good or what..
but to my capablity..
i will be on everyone side..
even you, ♥mas..
just to let you guys know..
am just a phone call away..
my phone might be in slience mode
but defineity not in resting mode..
trust me..
all this sincerely from my heart..
& i dun love boosting & bull shitting..
i dint know,
you can eventually treated someone you knew less than 2 yrs
better than the one you knew more than 4 yrs..
or i hasnt been a better friend than her?
IDK!!
when i thought bout others..
will they thought of me?
seriously..
i knew no one would take me into their minds
only when they had no one..
& that will be the time,they thought of me..
pathetic yeah..
anyways..
hope you really understand what i want to express!
10:07 AM
